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I feel like I've been smashing into this a lot lately. For the last 3 months, I have been trying to do something good that will help improve our family situation. I tried one thing, and it was a complete and utter disaster, beyond my ability to describe. I tried another thing, and it is also turning out to be a disaster, maybe even bigger than the fist attempt. I made yet another attempt and was really excited about it, but that is not going to work out. Today I made another attempt, and it looks like I am hitting another brick wall. How many times do I hit the brick wall and fall down on my face before I am able to either give up or finally break it down? Life is so confusing sometimes, especially when you feel like you are flying solo and feel so alone in your efforts to make a solid change, especially if you don't know if it will yield positive results even after you get there.